Thursday, March 10, 2011
Just another day in pain.
I use to think I was a very positive person and I guess in someways I am, but not today. I hate having fibromyalgia and I hate being in pain and today is my day to complain. I just tired of being tired and sick. My body hurts from head to toe and I have no energy whats so ever. I could just curl up in a ball and cry. My daughter is up in her room because she says I am boring and she hates to see me like this. So then I feel guilty about something I have no control over, my health. I know that depression is a big thing with fibro and right now its winning. I don't know how to be in a better mood when my body feels like it does. People tell me all the time that they have been healed by this and that so I try it to see. I spend a lot of money and nothing works. I take my meds and try to do all that the dr's tell me to do but nothing. I am just lost in this rotten illness right now. I should be use to it by now since I was diagnosed in 2001 but I still get them days like today. I can only hope and pray that tomorrow will be a better day then today. That tomorrow will have less pain then today. That tomorrow will be a day where I can get up and take care of my child and my house. I don't ask no one to feel sorry for me just to pray for me. This is my life and something I have to deal with and I guess it just helps to write it down or to tell someone. Thanks for listening to me!