Fibromyalgia with family and friends.

Well yesterday I was in the hospital for my fibromyalgia because the pain was so bad. Of course not much was done other then a pain shot that didn't work. I can't take Morphine as I am allergic to it so they give me a shot which usually works just not yesterday as the pain was so bad. They did give me some other meds to help with the pain so hopefully between the combination something will work. I haven't had a flare-up like this in awhile. I had my mother take me to the hospital and you would think that since I have had this horrible illness since 2001 and I have lived with her most of the time that she of all people would understand. I was so wrong, I felt that I was such a bother to her. I took a nap when I got home and when I got up I wanted to eat so I could take more meds so I asked her to make me a sandwich and she got mad. I started to cry because of so many emotions and the pain and disbelieve of her actions. Her response to me crying was to tell me I had no reason to be a ball baby. I feel it from so many others all the time that they just don't believe me even if I am almost in tears for the pain is so bad. I just don't understand how people can be like that. I have lost a lot of friends from this illness because I just ain't as much fun anymore. I can't do all the stuff I use to be able to do. I'm not dependable when it comes to keeping dates due to not knowing how I am going to be feeling from one day to the next. I so wish that I had never heard of this illness but now that I have I so hope and pray that they will find a cure right away. I just want people to understand that the pain is real and we have feelings and at times we need help or a shoulder to just cry on. Having this illness for 10 yrs now I still don't understand it all so I can't expect that those around me understand it neither but people need to get more educated whether they get on the internet or talk to others about it. Family and friends of those who have this need to be more understanding. Please if you know someone who has this please learn as much as you can about this illness so you can help them and others.

Just another day in pain.

I use to think I was a very positive person and I guess in someways I am, but not today. I hate having fibromyalgia and I hate being in pain and today is my day to complain. I just tired of being tired and sick. My body hurts from head to toe and I have no energy whats so ever. I could just curl up in a ball and cry. My daughter is up in her room because she says I am boring and she hates to see me like this. So then I feel guilty about something I have no control over, my health. I know that depression is a big thing with fibro and right now its winning. I don't know how to be in a better mood when my body feels like it does. People tell me all the time that they have been healed by this and that so I try it to see. I spend a lot of money and nothing works. I take my meds and try to do all that the dr's tell me to do but nothing. I am just lost in this rotten illness right now. I should be use to it by now since I was diagnosed in 2001 but I still get them days like today. I can only hope and pray that tomorrow will be a better day then today. That tomorrow will have less pain then today. That tomorrow will be a day where I can get up and take care of my child and my house. I don't ask no one to feel sorry for me just to pray for me. This is my life and something I have to deal with and I guess it just helps to write it down or to tell someone. Thanks for listening to me!